Twilight: Life or Death

My mind has been all over the place; like sand in the desert, constantly shifting in the hot wind.  Many things plague my mind and weigh heavy on my heart.  In attempt to distract myself from my thoughts and find some temporary relief, I watched Twilight: New Moon.  I've seen it many times and thought I could just space out to it.  Instead, I found myself upset and frustrated. 

Bella Swan has an opportunity that very very few women have.  She has the unwavering love and devotion of two guys.  And may I add that this devotions goes beyond fixing their car in the pouring rain, or running to the next county for her favorite ice cream.  No. They are willing to sacrifice their life for her.  Now there are many layers to this story and if you go deep enough, it's quite disturbing.  But for now that part that is stuck in my craw is Bella and her love life. 

First there are two guys who are completely different in race, age, culture, and the most obvious, one is a vampire and one is a werewolf.  One is eternally dead.  The other is alive with a beating heart that transforms into a wolf.  They both love her and desire her.

I tried to put myself in her shoes to see what I would do if I was in her situation.  Would I want to live an immortal life constantly on the move and watch my whole family and all my friends die around me as I stayed forever young? Would I give up the simple wonderful little things about life like having a picnic on the beach with the sun on my face? Or enjoying a beautiful dream snuggled in my warm bed? Or the most basic of feeling my heart beat quickening when I go for a morning run?   Would I be willing to give that up in the name of love?  I could choose to live though and while it wouldn't beforever, I could still enjoy the beautiful things that life has to offer. 

Vampires represent death and cold.  They're full of despair as they walk through the world carrying their dark secret.  They end up forgetting what real love is and what it's like to feel emotions.  Only in Stephanie Meyers do the vampires show human emotion.  But the legends and stories of vampires are centuries old and they are portrayed as not being able to be be human.  They are the shell of the human they once were.  They are forced to "live" haunted by memories forevermore. And the way they become what they are is very violent.  The way they have to power to attract humans by their beauty is unnatural.  So how does bella know she really loved Edward?

Now a Werewolf is no peach either.  They kill humans as well.  The difference is they are wolves only at night and cant help the transformation.  Most have been cursed with it or either they have have been attacked by a werewolf and managed to survive. But either way, they are still alive. 

 

When Bella is with Edward and his family, she literally surrounds herself with death and when she is with Jacob and his people, she's surrounded by life and energy.  You can actually see the change in her when she's around either one of them and when she is both Jacob and Edward, she is confused, because you can't be dead and alive.

 

Now Bella ultimately has a life or death choice.  If she chooses Jacob, she lives.  If she chooses Edward, she dies.  We aren't even going to get in to the fact that Edward abandons her and her taking him back and agreeing to marry him.  We are gonna leave those issues alone.   So we all know what happens.  She chooses Edward.  When given the choice, she chooses death.  My question is why?  What was so much better about being forever dead with Edward than living 60 years alive and having a family with Jacob?  Only in the Twilight series can a vampire have children.  None of the legends I've read or heard of said it was possible.  Infact, they all said it was impossible.  (Do your own research and let me know if you find anything different.)

 

 

If we put this situation into realistic terms; would you choose to marry and live with your soul mate and best friend who had 6 months to live? Or would you choose the really nice guy you care strongly for who's a sweet heart, financially stable and doesn't have death knocking on his door?  Bella chose the really nice guy.  I wouldn't have done that.  I've seen a lot of relationships and issues with them thanks to my own life and that of my friends and family.  I honestly would choose the man who I was in love with, was my best friend and soul mate.  I'd rather have 6 months filled with love, devotion and life, than 60 with a man I wasn't in love with, but cared about and could support me financially.  Bella loved Jacob and she was pulled towards Edward.  I think she took the cowards way. She and Jacob had a powerfully bond that even Edward couldn't break.  That bond is love.  How can I be sure? Because when Edward abandoned her, she was able to move on and did so with Jacob, but even when she got married, she needed Jacob to be there.  When they danced at her wedding, she said everythings perfect now.  If it was true love with Edward, then she wouldn't need Jacob for it to be perfect.  She would've missed him, but realistically, she would've chucked it up to it being his loss and him not being a real friend.  She needed Jacob, and wanted Edward and because it's a story, was able to have them both.  But that's never how it is in real life.

What would you do?  Choose life? or Death?

Blessed Be

The Grey Matter of Humanity

 

Today my thoughts are like water.  They are deep, with no clear view of the bottom, and a churning undercurrent that I find I’m compelled to share with you.

Legends, lore and stories of the ancient worlds and magic have always pulled at me.  As a child, I’d watch Marry Poppins, completely caught up in the possibility of being able to walk up smoke staircases, put toys away with the snap of a finger, laugh so hard you’d float to the ceiling, or find romance in a chalk drawing on a sidewalk.  I also grew up listening to J.R. Tolken’s the Hobbit, on cassette tape and my imagination would soar with the possibility that there really were different realms with uniquely fascinating characters with different languages and unique beliefs.   Things that I daydreamed about seemed to come alive with these stories and movies.  When I was about 11 or 12, I remember my mama renting a movie from the library called Merlin.  It was the amazing story of King Author and his amazing wizard, Merlin.   The movie was more about the wizard’s life and the role he played in King Arthur’s life to ensure he became king of Camelot and was an honorable one at that.  Needless to say it was rather adult for back then and for a young girl of my age, but I couldn’t get enough of it.  I would rewind and re-rewind the movie over and over.  I remember how it spoke to me.  It effectively shattered my very naive and very innocent view of what was right and what was wrong.  It taught me that nothing is ever as it seems, your sins will always find you out or it will eat at you until you confess that there is more than one way to sell your soul, and what may appear to be a wholesome sacrifice could be done with selfish intentions.  I watched, enraptured as the deceit, manipulations, betrayal, passion, love, loyalty, despair, hate, revenge, pride and courage were all incredibly entwined to the point that there seemed there was no clear right or wrong.   I learned that life is never as black or white as we wish.  When looking at the situation from the outside, it seems very black and white, but that is only because our emotions aren’t involved.   Its when we are in the midst that we find there is an overwhelming amount of grey that we must navigate and pray we did what we were taught is morally correct.  And even then, what we find morally correct is different than the person next to us.   It’s very easy to say that telling a lie and murder is wrong, and biblical it says not to do both, but what if the lie or that act of murder saved a life? Would it be okay to betray your wife or husband, if it meant keeping her from destroying someone else’s future?  What about Suicide?  There’s an old debate.  Some say you will go to hell for it because it’s a sin.  But what if doing it saved a life or a nation?  What if that one act inspired a future generation for good?

Everyone has a purpose, a mission in life and a personal destiny on this earth.  We each have our own agenda.  Some have chosen a path for good, while others have chosen one for evil, and they are both driven to do what they feel they need to in order to accomplish their destiny; wither it’s to better our world or to create mayhem and despair.  The grey matter of humanity appears when destinies collide, whether it be good against good, bad against bad or good against bad.  Like a two children fighting over a block they both need to finish their building, we as adults fight against each other.  We tell them to share, but what do we do?  Children left alone to sort it out will scratch, wrestle and hit.  What do us as adults do?  We do the same.  Unlike children with toys, we as adults cannot always compromise on some things.  So who is right?  Whose mission should be put first?  Even a sacrifice of self has an element of selfishness in it. It just means we are willing to sacrifice something to see what we want done is done.  Is that a bad thing to be selfish for what you think is a good cause?

Ive been watching the newest version of Arthur and Merlin’s story.  It’s the BBC TV Series titled Merlin. The difference with this series is that they rearranged the story a little so that we can see Morgana, Arthur, Merlin and Gwenevire as young teenagers, so that we can see how they developed into the powerful people that the legends of old talk about by how they navigated some of life’s more challenging issues.  To watch them learn about life and discover its grey matters as well as conquer the situations they’re put into, is amazing and thought provoking.   Watching them, I honestly am not sure what I would’ve done in a couple of the situations.  I found that this series forced me to look at myself and my values and beliefs.  Most things in life are thought provoking if you really take the time to look and absorb it.  But of course most won’t, because they find themselves terribly uncomfortable as they realize that not only do they not know their true self, but they don’t really know what it is that they stand for in life, let alone what their destiny is.  You’ll find that with most people, those things change when their friends, life situation, or moods change.  They always end up moving the line for what’s right and wrong.  So we circle back… is right always right? Is wrong always wrong?  Or are there exceptions?  Who determines what’s right and wrong for our communities and allowed to take on the amendments for the various exceptions to situations? 

If you have the answer, go ahead and email me.

Blessed Be

Ballycotton, Ireland

There are so many place that I'd love to see before I die...But Ireland is first on my list.  I'd love to see the Emerald Isle and get lost in the stories of old.  I for one, still believe in fairies and the wee folk...  and you should too, if you know what's good for you!

One of the places I'd love to visit is the small fishing village of Ballycotton in the county Cork.  I'd like to try my hand at deepsea fishing, or walk along the cliffs on the goat trail (never been on a goat triail before), or spend an evening in the local pub listening to them tell tales of the Lighthouse and lifeboat.  I think part of it's appeal to me besides the obviously beautiful scenery, is that it's a small village with about 500 people who apparently built this village on top of the old on which is now completely underwater.  There's something about small towns that can be quite charming and I have a feeling this one will prove to be so as well. 










I'm facinated just by the scenery.. can't wait to get there one day! If any of ya'll have ever been to Ireland, I'd love to hear about it! Send me and email!

Blessed Be

Still Wishing for a Tree House

Fall is such a romantic time of year to me.  I tend to be a little more fanciful than most as it is and when fall comes around, I’m even worse.  I love watching the leaves change their colors and when the fall winds blow, it’s like they’re dancing at an autumn ball; there’s nothing like taking an afternoon stroll all bundled up in your cuddliest sweater, that’s your favorite color kicking the fallen leaves on your path… And nothing more welcoming when coming in from the cold, after jumping in a pile of leaves (yes, I still jump in piles of leaves), than a hot cup of apple cider.  Don’t forget the romance of barn parties with their blazing bonfires and yummy mountain pies, couples snuggling on a hay bale while roasting a marshmallow for each other…  innocent cold kisses stolen under the bright stars at night… *sigh*  How can anyone not see how romantic the fall is?  Then there’s all the baking of cookies and sweets and family-get-togethers and amazing parties! Autumn is filled with such fun and romance.  It also brings back long forgotten dreams that we had as children. 

When I was younger, I used to climb trees… barefoot and on the occasion while in a skirt (Mama will be horrified, if she reads this… sorry Mama).  Being up in the trees was one of my favorite places to go when I wanted to get away.  There was one tree in particular in our front yard by the brick wall.  It had the most perfect branch with a “v” that I lay on and not fall out.  Back then we had portable cd players with big head phones, and I used to take mine and go up there and hide.  With my ear phones on, I couldn’t hear a thing except for my music.  I’d lay up there on my branch and doze and dream, and plan what my life would be like.  One of the things was my get private get away; my tree house.

I’ve always loved them and wanted one where I could do my art or in the fall and winter, curl up with a big fat book in my big fuzzy socks, my softest sweater, and not be disturbed.  If given the opportunity, I’d probably live in one.  But then I’m odd like that.  If I could have one right now, this is what I’d choose…

You know, I think my little girl would love one of these too… So I think I’ll definitely keep the tree house on my bucket list…  May this fall find y’all with romance on your doorstep!

Blessed Be

Harry Potter Runway

Hey everybody! I’m sorry I wasn’t able to post yesterday.  I got into a fight with the computer, but as you can clearly see, I came out the victor! Lol   Now, my Tuesday evening was spent pulling out my winter clothes and putting my summer clothes away for the year, and while doing so, Marc Jacob’s crossed my mind.  I kept seeing his campaign in my head for his Louis Vuitton Autumn/Winter 2012-2013 collection for women.  I’m honestly not sure if I’ve ever had one particular collection on my mind before, and the fact that it was on my mind, intrigued me.  So instead of relaxing with my hot cup of chamomile and my current Nora Roberts novel, I set the book aside and I decided to look up the full show on YouTube, since I had already seen the campaign video.

http://youtu.be/uTI69Unc6e4

Now maybe not to y’all, but to me, it made me think of the Harry Potter series, and the minute you see the clothes, you’ll understand why.  The clothes had a throwback feel, and were whimsical with classic lines, yet still felt modern.  The colors were rich and the fabric whispered luxury.  Most of the time when I view a collection, there’s only a couple of pieces that stand out to me or that I put on my wish list. But with this collection, there was at least one piece from every model that I wanted.  Crazy right?  I really, really, really want one of the hats…  I love hats and I want a pair of the sunglasses too in black.  I just loved it all.  This was probably one of my favorite shows that I’ve ever watched.  It was theatrical with amazing clothes and I loved it.  He started off by setting the stage as an old train station, much like the one in Harry potter, and having an actual train pull the models in for the show (which rumor has is it was built by his team, by hand).  With the lighting and the amazing clock that seemed to glow like a magical moon, it appeared the train was arriving at night.  Each model was escorted off the train and each had her own attendant to carry her personal luggage.  Oh, and may I say the luggage was incredible?   It was like watching a play and it made me wish there was more.

 

http://youtu.be/COUxD5JLRrw

 

Could you imagine watching a real train pull in, steam and all?  I would’ve given almost anything to see this one in person.  Kudos to who came up with the concept!  Now I also looked at the show for the men’s line, and while I like the clothes, I wasn’t impressed by the show.  The clothes for the men had the same throwback feel as the women’s did, and like the women, they had a modern feel, and I adored the hats for the men.

 

 

http://youtu.be/WoFdpbcID30

Time for me to get out of her, but I hope ya’ll enjoyed the videos and the pictures and got as much of a kick from them as I did!

Blessed Be